Our first anniversary β™₯

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10PM?? at Victory Liner. Our trip is 11PM pa, so we watched (well he made me watch it) Game of Thrones while waiting. Then, we noticed that there’s a bus waiting na for Baguio Trip. We were so confident pa kasi 11PM kami, that was 10:30 pa lang ata or 10:45 idky but I asked Lorenz to ask Manong Konduktor what the trip is for, then he presented our ticket and Manong told us na pasok na kami…

Ay mali — we were wrong pala, si Lorenz was wrong haha nagkamali sya ng tantsa sa alis namin. Basta ending. pagpasok sa bus triggered ako sa kanya kasi di nya dinouble check ticket. HAHAH tapos nasa byahe kami di kami nagpapansinan, tulog sya tapos nanonood ako GOT. Then nung mejo malapit na kami, around Zigzag na un e ung tuwa na ako sa city lights, I held his hands. Then alam ko sinubuan nya pa ko yum ata nito or jollihotdog e kaya bati na kami e hahaha.

So there, after 6hours na byahe ata, touchdown BAGUIO!! My first time here. It’s so special coz I had that first moment with him.

Our first stop, was actually walking around from the terminal going to Session Road. Waze waze lang hahaha.. it was so funny, kinda tiring yeah but di ko masyado naramdaman kasi we were so happy walking kahit takot kami kasi mejo madilim pa (4:30 ata un or 5AM na) tapos isa lang kasabay namin nauuna pa samin bilis maglakad hahaha.. then we got to Session Road and hinahanap namin ung Hotel na binook nya, and we got there. Since it’s too early to check-in, iniwan muna namin gamit there para makapaglibot kaming walang dalahin. (Thank you, Hotel Veniz for allowing us keep our things at your humble hotel)

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We went back to Session Road and went to a carinderia nearby and I bought me some Mami and he went for coffee and some breads. After eating, we went to a Church (and sorry po sobrang antok namin), I think we lasted there for 15-25minutes? The sun was about to rise na, and we went to Burnham Park. We ate some strawberry taho. We went to the park and rode a seesaw and swing (brings back my childhood memories, sobrang tagal ko ng hindi nakapunta ng park at nakakasakay ng mga ganun) We rode the bicycle, the first ones were angkas nya pako.. then we switched and ako naman driver. Tapos he insisted of renting a bicycle without the assistant gulongs haahha eh I can’t drive a bike (it’s a long story basta my mama stopped me from learning how to haha) so I tried naman nung mejo natututo nako nasiyahan ako masyado hindi ko na nabalance at naliko liko hanggang sa ang ginawa ko na lang binunggo ko sa may mga harang at puno hahaha (di naman mesheke, Lorenz was always at my back inaalalayan ako) at dun na natapos ang journey ko sa pagsasariling magbike hahaha bumalik kami sa angkas hahaha.. right after (nakalimutan ko san kami nagpunta) umalis na kami and took some pics outside.

After Burnham Park, we went to Camp John Hay. Hayyyy it was a long walk hahaha, pataas pa but it was fun. It was a long walk with the one you’re inlove with — just like the journey of our relationship, it will really be a long walk but in the end you’ll reach your goal (ano daw hahah). We had a little picnic there and rode the seesaw again (this time it is successful kasi ung sa Burnham kinda sira and kakahiya kasi may nakapilang bata hahaha) We also had a little history adventure sa Camp John Hay — Cemetery of Negativism, Historical Cove, Bell House (mejo natakot ako dito ng very light hehe) then History Trail — and that concludes our Camp John Hay tour.

Right after our productive morning date, we went to his very recommended resto and an affordable one, Good Taste Restaurant. And I can say, the long pila is worth it. πŸ™‚ I had chopsuey and he had Chicken Curry (his favorite) he also ordered some halohalo for dessert.

After that satisfying lunch, we headed to the hotel to find some rest.. and I was really tired hahaha. I just fixed the things and since there were 2 beds that were separate, pinagdikit namin hehe. It was so huge kasya apat na tao. The lights were so romantic so I ended up sleeping (though lagi naman akong tulog pag staycation namin hahaha) Idk what time nako nagising basta ginising nya mga bandang gabi kasi makikipagkita sya sa friend nyang nasa Baguio then that time sobrang antok ko oo na lang ako e hahaha then back to sleep. Coz I was afraid of being alone too nakabukas ilaw and tv while I was sleeping hahaha then we woke up breakfast mode na (sobrang haba ng sleep ko boiii) The brekky was so awesome, it was a buffet (ang binayaran lang namin is actually ung breakfast plate pero we were allowed to eat the breakfast buffet, THANK YOU SO MUCH HOTEL VENIZ!!) And I indeed enjoyed the food and the coffee.

Can’t recall if this was the breakfast na nakabasag sya ng baso hahaha.. basta after eating breakfast I don’t recall what is it we were fighting basta I went mad. Hahah tampururot ako nun sa terrace hahaha, tapos hindi man lang ako sinundan ilang minutes ako nasa labas.. tapos bumalik ako, humiga ako nagtalukbong galitgalitan pa din haha. Tapos ayan na, ang sorprisa na sakin ni Koya mo. Hahaha dapat daw hindi nya pa ibibigay kaso nagtatampo daw ako. He surprised me with a ring. That time akala ko nagppropose na si kuya mo, iyak ako ng iyak tapos iniisip ko pinaalam na ba nya ko kay mama omg tapos tuloy tuloy pagloloko nya sakin hahah “Will you marry me?” sabi nya. And I said YES!!! bursting into tears tapos biglang JOKE lang daw, Anniversary gift nya dun sakin. BWISIT TALAGA TO HAHAHAAH pinaasa ako LOL. (the ring was on the cover of this post)

So we started our anniversary tour (Botanical Garden, The Mansion, hahah omg dko na alam pinagpuntahan namin basta these are the pics)

I also bought some pasalubongs here. Our Day 2 was so nakakapagod yet productive. At di pa yan dito nagtatapos. So we went back to the hotel to sleep LOL. Nagising na kami around 4AM na ata and I was craving for chowking, we went outside and bought some.. (Our last day starts now huhu) Ooops, not yet done with the second day pa pala. Before the 4AM gising, we actually went to the night market to buy some pasalubongs too (damits and syempre ukays) Soo happy I get to experience this!

So ayun na nga, after night market we went to sleep again and nagising na ng brekky pala. Buffet breakfast part 2 naka 2 cups of coffee ata ako! After brekky, we went outside to buy some gulays hahah maygahd shopping galore na naman ho si Earl Biong. Sobrang bigat ng dalahin namin pauwi.

And that concludes our Anniversary at Baguio. Thanks again to my one and only for bringing me here. It’s a dream a come true and it’s now off my bucket list. We will definitely go back here.

***Very late post. This was January 2019

Look who God gave me

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78, 9132 minutes (counted 00:32 in the clock when I started checking for the time)
13, 152 hours
548 days
78.29 weeks
18 months
1 year and 6 months

Yessss.. i’m for keeps lol hahahah, just kidding

What I was trying to say is that, wow.. I know that isn’t as long as other couples are, but I know Lorenz would agree with me on this but we never thought that we’d stay like this. Like, we started as what? Strangers with each other, just talking with each other online every night going to sleep, tried dating secretly.. then boom, the rest just happened.

548 days — so many things happened thru that span of time.

‘Course, we fight and made love, and traveled – one thing I never thought I’d like to do ‘coz I’ve been a home-office-home person. Lorenz, mylove, this is my third pahabol birthday gift to you. I know how much it makes you smile reading your portion here in my blog. I love you.. i hope this one will serve it’s purpose. So here it is.. a timehop of our love.

January 2018 – started dating, three weeks later – been official for 48 hours, split on the third day and after a week we found ourselves together again. He met my family on this month as well. We also had our first movie date (^Siargao^) and tried dampa for the first time.

February 2018 – He brought me on their home. Got my new phone (my dream phone which is in error right now huhu) and took our first photo. He’s rendering his last days on the company and I requested if we can at least have our first and last lunch date as colleagues and we did (we heard alot of pang-aasar, as expected, after) Our first valentines date together — Korean style hehe, with my favorite sweets and a love letter. I almost died of kilig. As a return, I treat him naman post valentines date and we had our second movie date here – and this movie date is memorable ^The Morning After^. Had my haircut and he’s being supportive. Celebrated our first monthsary together – he gave me the silver heart bracelet as a gift. He joined mom’s bday celebration. He made me watch “Catch me if you can” and gave me tuna pie and tinulugan nya ko while I was watching the movie hahaha lol and that’s how we ended Feb.

March 2018 – I got his childhood picture. He is still unemployed as of this month so he has this ‘hobby’ of hatid and sundo me as I go to work. We had our chinese-chinesean date this month as I was really craving for chinese cuisine. Afterwards, our coffee date. By the way, before this happened we were having telebabad via messenger and actually, the chinese chinesean date is not even planned at all. So there, we did it hehehe, we stayed at Starbucks until 11:20PM? We are starting to be comfortable with each other. I made him taste my specialty lol – tuna pasta hahaha. Sad he’s not into pasta but he still eat it with love. He’s making me feel I’m always beautiful (nasingit ko lang hahaha) We celebrated our 2nd monthsary on Pancake House – and he made my wish come true (eat tacos hahaha) He usually spends overnight and even goes to the house whenever I am sick and sick sick-an lang LOL hahahaha, buys my favorite chicken and bbq and drinks with me. He also spent his first team building with my team. Every week my shift ends, he’s always there to wait for me. We ended up March by dating on a food park.

April 2018 – We continued watching the Marvel CU in sequence. Betsin night, as I named it. Usual weekend date ‘someone actually captured as a paparazzi shot’ while we were at the mall. We captured, on the other hand, our first family pic (Me, Lorenz and Whinkey). This month is kinda busy on him as he is looking for a job. I got frustrated everytime he is frustrated whenever he’s facing difficulties looking for a company that will hire him. It was client’s visit this month, I need office clothes – he went to Divi with me and made the tawad tawad and made comments if the damit I will buy suits me or not. Damn, this one’s prangka and will tell me if it does not suit me even though I feel like it is hahaha. After client visit, it was my innovation pitch. Him being supportive, after applying he went straight on our home and I wake up with butchi on my bed with his notes making me feel his 100% support and love while he’s ironing my office attire that day. Patay na patay talaga sakin tong lalaki na to LOL charot hahaha. We ended April with watching Avengers:Infinity War together, which means us being OUT in the crowd. πŸ˜‰

May 2018 – His first footland on my aunt’s home at Manggahan. Actually, second lol. First time lang na magkasama kami, his actual first is when I had my innovation pitch as he was invitied when my sister celebrated something there lol. Mother’s Day month – we shop for gifts for our mothers and also had Mother’s Date together. We made our moms meet and greet and eat together lol. Highlight of the month is our Tagaytay travel – my first time in Tagaytay and our first travel together.

June 2018 – Lorenz is hired and is celebrating his first day on this month! I am as happy as he was ❀ As a celebration, we had a quick date on KK and bought a glazed donut and a coffee courtesy of Booky. On the second week, he brought me champorado with canned evap pa. I was craving for champorado and timely it was his mom cooked one. We had our first breakfast together as professionals lol. This month we also cooked pancake and yakisoba – again, my crazy cravings Lorenz is fulfilling. Highlight of the month is my bestfriend’s wedding and we attended it together and he met my college besties.

July 2018 – He made me play ML hahaha, I got addicted with it for at least 2-3 days, I guess? It’s his birthmonth. As a little gift, after my shift I went straight on their home, surprise him with my presence, a cake and his necessities as a gift. He was sick during his birthday celebration 😦 until the weekend.. so it was the first weekend that he was unable to visit me on our house. He is sick yet he still insists visiting me even though we had just seen each other. (Up to this day, he just missed 1 Sunday? or 2? I can’t recall hahaha basta he just missed visiting me when he is sick, hope this one will never change until our last day as boyfriends and girlfriend). Highlight of the month is my brother”s birthday celebration and resumed with our beer night on our house right after eating outside. I guess, his highlight of the month is that I sent him a video of me dancing “Kiki, do you love me? Are you ridin’?” hahaha.. by the way he also have this hobby of saving all video clips of me (me kissing him online, doing baby talks, cleansing my face.. etc hahaha) Ended June attending a Sportsfest and heading back home and us having our first videoke together. He is really good at singing “Stigmatized” πŸ™‚

August 2018 – I was having a hard time at the office so he treat me with a quick potato corner date on the mall. Oh, I was still playing ML pala at this month hahaha. There was this a photo of us in SNR whereas he waiting until 9PM (3hrs of waiting after his shift) for us to have pizza together. Still craving for tacos so we made Mama do one and we have our first Homemade Taco Date together. We were having our fight as well on this month (can’t recall what it is though, though I know WHO are we arguing about LOL) he bought me milk tea and a fries.. we were just talking at the side of my office building. Just talking. And ofcourse, Love wins. I think I treat him with Milk Tea in return as shown in the pic. This month was his first footstep on my bestfriend Sarah’s home as we visited her and brought her some of my baby gifts. I also got a chance to meet for the first time his bestfriends. Got home wearing his shirt and with his Mama’s cooked foodies such as menudo, spag and what else is inside? Can’t recall basta ang dami. Love, anong meron ng August bakit ang daming pagkain? Is it Fiesta?? I guess we are still having our cold fight here cause there’s this pic where he bought me my first tripod along with a monopod as a monthsary gift – and ofcourse, we took our first pic using these gifts together. We ate at Mang Inasal, have my construction worker kaen there lol. This month was the month I have my first overnight on their home hahaha I requested VL and told everyone in the house that I had pasok haha but reality is that I spent my whole shift on Lorenz’ residence. We watch Hereditary while drinking beers and eating pichipichi ❀ (Singit lang ulit, hayy I’m such as spoiled girlfriend, Mark Lorenz. Lahat ng gusto kong kainin binibigay mo hahaha handa na akong maglihi charot) We also had our first PHYSICAL scrabble together hahaha (he always wins this game over me hmp!) Ended August with my promotion celebration. Thank you, love, for being with me. Thru the ups and downs of my career. I love you so much!

September 2018 – my birthmonth!! ❀ Started the month with us going on Eastwood church (He always brings me here to pray, majority of the moments he shared with me is that he goes there usually to pray for thanks to God by bring me on his life, to strengthen our relationship.. hayyy thank you Lord for giving me this man. I am teary eyed and smiling as I was typing this, ngayon ko kasi naalala ulit how frequent we are on that church.. and nasasad ako kasi nakakalimot na tayo mahal ko. Let’s go back there again, our usual stopover every week my shift ends) We watch The Hows of Us (our 3rd movie date ba to mahal ko?) I attended Sportsfest sleeveless and Mark Lorenz was like “Woah. Sexy!” hahahahha inaakit ko talaga sya kaya ako nakaganon hahahaha. Since then, we had this every morning videocall (Night shift ako, before I sleep we will always have this nakaw video call time him sneaking during his office hours) We had tasted the much awaited Reeses Ice Cream and we were so disappointed hahaha – this was our version of Family Mart date. He captured me sleeping with my mouth open grr! We had our first date at Army Navy. We also witnessed together my bestfriend giving birth to her first child. Made my own version of nachos.. he gave me my fave blueberry cheesecake. Have a quick dinner date on PeriPeri Cubao while wearing the shirts we wore on our first official date (and this not even planned at all — am I correct, us wearing those shirts?) Aaand my birthday cake. He waited for my birthday to come, soon as the clock ticked 12midnight. We were having a video chat. He planned this so that he’s the first one to greet me on my special day. After my shift ends, he surprised me with cake and a gift handing it as he waited for me on the lobby. He was supposed to record my reaction but he failed because he is too excited as well hahaha. As soon as we arrived home and I opened the gifts, he gave me my first white shoes along with a love letter ❀ He made my dream of having that Contis’ cake come true! The day after, we traveled to Olongapo – my hometown. I have him met my relatives from my mother’s side and what’s cute is that my uncles were already approving of our relationship and even excited for our wedding. We had our first beach together! That’s the highlight of our September. (I was thinking again, Lorenz spoiling me of these things, hayy!)

October 2018 – We watched Exes Baggage (puro Local pala pinagnonood natin mahal ko hahaha) This month we discovered that you look like exactly the man on ‘Sa Ngalan ng Pag-ibig MV’ hahaha! I cooked you lunch this month – that experiment corned beef with potato (I made something different with that potato and db It tasted so well?!) I think I had this second overnight in your house, we bought groceries in Savemore e. I attended my first Leadership Planning session and as usual, sinundo mo ako right after. The morning after it, you cooked bananaque for me (coz again I was craving for it.. thank you mahal ko!) I steal your childhood pics πŸ˜€ I sent you my “Lorenz.. may bungal ako gitna.. anong gagawin!” (non verbatim hahah basta yun yon!) We ended the month with you waiting for almost 7hours when I was having my hair rebonded. You being supportive brought me jolly hotdog and took snapchat shots as you were so bored hahaa.

November 2018 – Peak season has almost entered, you worked from home in our home after mo ko sinundo sa office πŸ˜€ so I stayed for almost a few hours I guess even if I extended my shift na (we watched The Incredibles 2 kahit napanood na natin to) We cooked ginataang halohalo because you are craving for one. We also attended Baby Primo’s Christening (you met my highschool boy friends unofficially though haha and you also met my ex there LOL) You also sacrificed your sleeping hours just to hatid me on the office as I have so many things to carry since it was my first team building with my first legit team. We ate our first HOBING at Bon Chon. You took photos of me outside your house, in your street where Christmas Lights and Parols are decorated so beautifully. I felt so pretty during that time kahit bagong gising ako hahah cause you made me feel like I always am. Highlight of this month is when we have our first swimming together with my family at Noah’s. Biglaan lang to right? Dami kong pera neto e hahahaha.

December 2018 – I had my haircut at David’s Salon and you being supportive again coz’ I feel like ugly on my hair – made me feel like I’m still pretty. We had breakfast at Jollibee Concepcion – our first time there – as I was craving for pancake sandwich. You also fetch me on SM North after our ano bang ginawa namin basta after our activity on Home for the Aged, afterwards we went straight on my Thesismate’s house as we attended a funeral. You brought me your mom’s pasalubong to me when they went to Baguio — a jacket, lengua, banana chips, Ube Jam and Strawberry Jam. We tasted for the first time empanada from Farmer’s (coz again, cravings) along with the fresh lumpia. Hinatid mo din me as I go towards Leads Christmas Party on Greenhills bcoz I don’t know how to go there. We had our Christmas and Pre-monthsary date on Tony & Sergio’s. Exhanged gifts – you got me a watch and I got you a guitar. I said to myself, ring na lang kulang.. (and wait for it hahaha) You were also there for me when I am having my last minute Christmas Shopping and this one’s memorable, too because we also had our first DAKASI. Highlight, ofcourse is that this is our first Christmas together as official couple. πŸ™‚ We also get to celebrate Post Christmas Dinner with my fam at Italianni’s. Dec 28 – treat him with Milk Tea because he rendered his first OTY. πŸ˜€

January 2019 – Started the year with us videochatting. We had our first Ramen Date – and ofcourse, I ate his order hahaha. We rode our first FREE Bus ride. Shopped for snacks, bbq and a drink as we are planning a beer night but then again we have our male character sleeping. We were supposed to watch UNBREAKABLE together but he ended up sleeping grr. A memory throwback of our MOA date flashed in fb. We bought Contis’ cake for your mom’s birthday. And ofcourse, it is our month!! Our 1year anniversary. We celebrated it on Baguio (and I know I still have blog utang for that as well as for our Masasa omg hahaha) You gave me a ring, though you were proposing to me already. Actually, it was a supposed to be surprise which I ruined. We were fighting over something and as your ‘let’s be okay’ na panguuto, you gave me that ring. I was crying. You were crying. So you resumed pretending like you were proposing to me (in my mind I was thinking did you get my mom’s approval of this) then screw it I said yes then you were laughing cause it was just a joke, the proposal.. but what’s real is that it is your anniversary gift to me hahaha) Thank you for bringing me to Baguio :”> You made me ride a horse, as well! Ohh, and you made me watch Game of Thrones!

February 2019 – 2nd Valentines together. You keep telling me you’re sorry you don’t have gift to me then you have a planned surprise pala. Haha mejo nakakhiya kasi nasa National Bookstore pa tayo while you handed me that stick of rose and a cake and a gift.. but it did made me smile. That was the first time I received a flower in public, thank you for making me feel beautiful again. We cooked Baked Tahod and Cheesesticks coz you were craving for it — and that’s a wrap for this month.

March 2019 – We had our first streetfoods in our home, mama cooked fishballs, kikiam and squidballs (I think those were our expense?) We are our first PIZZA Smile together – a local pizzahouse in our area and it’s masarap dba?.. We sneaked at Namanama bacause of the matagal na service. We had Captain Marvel date. We ate for the first time on that korean fastfood beside the Shawarma store. We had our first TROOPER’s date and ate chicharong bulaklak. Supposed to be we should be at SM however I am so lazy hahaha and so bagal so we ended up at Trooper’s instead. It was a post celebration to our monthsary. That’s ho we ended March.

April 2019 – You got me my first hickeys hahahaha. I sent you my tiktok video clips. We had our Avengers:Endgame date. I was having my social media detox. Nothing much on April, huh?

May 2019 – We were having our fight, cold cold fight and almost wanna give up fight. But there you are, fighting. Fighting for me and for your love for me. I love you. We had our Ramen date on a local foodhouse here in Burgos. Afterwards, a couple body massage, your treat πŸ˜€ Thank you!!! And it does not end there, we had our comeback for the Chinese Date — Lorenz’ strategy of winning me back. πŸ˜‰ It has a bonus of apple cheesecake (apple?? basta, it was a super duper sweet cheesecake) We had our first NALILIGAW SA MARIKINA experience prior we landed safe haven LOL. Sinusundo mo pa din ako even after my late night training kahit you have pasok the next day.. and pinagbibigyan to order cheese pizza on Greenwich kahit hindi un ung gusto mong flavor. We were watching Game of Thrones til the end. Having this pustahan of who’s who – ended up tie score. You gave me Nooda crunch (cravings LOL) and a pair of reeses (you gave me these on our monthsary while it was raining so hard outside my office building) We had our first breakfast date on OSMOSIS, gumising ka ng maaga for this because 5AM out ko. You also went with me when I was cheering up a brokenhearted friend. The whole month of May, you were winning me back.

June 2019 – We were having that almost giving up moments.. but your love for me is so great that even though it hurts you still wanted to be with me (Lord, thank You for this man.. I am so blessed) You made me come to your relatives summer outing on Zambales.There I get to meet one of your relatives from your mother’s side. I enjoyed that weekend getaway. I wore onepiece showing my not so pretty legs but still you never made me feel that there is something that I need to be insecured with. You also let me join you as your plus one on Enchanted Kingdom – our first together here. You gave me blueberry cheesecake (as he lures, winning me back) He said he saw a tweet I made daw kaya he bought me one. We also had our FIRST MMDA ticket (though we had before pero hindi nticketan, this time it’s for real) We celebrated Father’s Day by treating Mama on Greenwich. This month, my dream phone committed suicide hahahaha.

July 2019 – You were on my side as I was emoting on the lost of my iPhone hahaha. we were at Greenhills, my first time there.. our first time there at the Shopping Mall. On this month, I also got my new phone. Your birthmonth – by which I was planning to surprise which end up not being surprise at all coz you already had a hint of it. It was my first time doing that hmp! Anyway, I know I still made you smile πŸ™‚ Highlight of this month is our Masasa Escapade. Thank you for bringing me there.

Present time – at this hour you are already sound at sleep. I can’t think of any words to say, but I love you.. so much. And thank you, for everything that you had done, doing and will do for me. I will always be grateful to the Lord for giving me a man like you in my life. You’re the opposite of me for the most of my characters but those difference did not stop us from being into each other. I really pray that you’ll be that man that will bear my children, that man that I will be with under the same roof, that man that will be on my side as I fulfill my dreams and that man that I will share my last heartbeat with.

Mark Lorenz, I love you! Happy birthday!

PS I throwback pero hindi ko nakita dito ung sinurprise kita sa inyo, remember ung may KK and love letter in resibo.. hmm! Also, dko tuloy na account kelan natin una nakain ung takoyaki
PPS I look forward in creating more FIRSTs with you and ofcourse, more memories to be cherish!
Xoxo,

Earl 03:41am

Guess I found the one.. :)

“A soulmate is someone who has locks that fit our keys, and keys to fit our locks. When we feel safe enough to open the locks, our truest selves step out and we can be completely and honestly who we are.” – Richard Bach

It was the last month of last year when I had that “kilig” feeling. After being into so much pain of the ‘almost forever’ break-up, after meeting and talking with different guys just to have someone who cares again, who checks if you had eaten yet, who texts/chats you goodmorning and goodnight.. It was the last month of last year, when I opened my heart again to someone I did not even think of I will love the way I am loving him right now. I did not even pictured these things to happen and be felt, and that’s just makes it right. Unplanned things such as these, meeting him, being with him, knowing him, his friends and family.. I can’t thank the Lord enough.

So, again, it was the last month of last year, when we started chatting each other talking like the usual, flirting each other, until the first month of 2018 came when we decided to go out on a date. Official date.Β This is where we started

January 21 came, it was his first time at my home, and this was our 3rd consecutive Sunday of seeing each other outside work. This is when he confessed that he loves me as he whispered “I love you” so sweet in my ears. It was so sudden, I am emotionally high as well that time so I said yes. After 2 days, I told him I can’t do it. Us being together, cause I am unsure of everything since I think we were rushing things. And we agreed that we will be casual with each other like nothing “us” happened. After a few days, he sent me chat again “Hoy” I was that time with my office friends and was talking about him since I felt like guilty and sad. And the marupok me strike that time, I replied.. and the rest was history. January 28, we tried it again, and this time we held on to each other. At first, it was all in cloud9. So high in love. Feels like everyone around us is in favor of the new love affair that just started in teasing. Just like how everyone felt the kilig as well when I am sharing to everyone how we made our first Chinese date, our valentines date, etc.

‘Til our 4th month came when the ‘darkness’ inside me insisted. This is very usual for me to happen, when the love is starting to blossom, there is in me that feels confused and afraid. And so I thought of space.. and this is where I knew this man does not know how to give up. Right after telling to him the space thing, he immediately went for a ride from their residence to mine. That night after, he won me back again. I told myself “I can’t lose this guy” though I know that time that I am not inlove with him the way he loves me. Like I love him, really, it’s just I know he loves me more.

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So after that, our 5th month came, we had ourΒ Our TAGAYTAY experience βœ”οΈ

We now celebrate Mother’s day with each other’s families, birthdays, family birthdays and reunions and some other occasions. We’ve been consistently seeing each other every weekend and him being consistent every Sunday (just failed one because he was really sick) even up to this date. But our love for each other is being tested, and up to this date it is. We had our 3rd fight (but this fight was not us battling each other about each other’s indifferences) but to date, this fight was a battle for our love with each other and the same feeling and statement I told myself “I can’t lose this guy”

Lorenz, I might not write you a lot in my blog, but please know that I love you. So much that even though it is too early to say, I really want to be with you til the end. Thank you for bringing out the best in me, for pushing me, for encouraging me, for making me feel loved like I never had one before.. thank you for everything. I will never be tired of loving you and I hope I was able to love you like the way you love me, though I know I can’t overpower your love because it is so so much! Every battle we had, challenges, hardships.. these are worthwhile, I believe the Lord blesses us and is always will. Thank you for bringing me again closer to God. Thank you for praying for me, my family and our relationship. I pray the same too.

I love you.. and I assure you I will take care of you and your heart. ;winkwink

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Our TAGAYTAY experience βœ”️

DISCLAIMER: this is a kwento of our trip. Not an itinerary πŸ˜„

I’ve always wanted to go Tagaytay.. because I was so curious how cool the weather there is. And I have not gone into some other places. So I’m very excited with this trip knowing that I am with my Marlo. (That’s his nickname and he was nainis before when I call him that back on the times we were just starting to “landi” each other LOL)

He planned this biglaang trip (which I am very impressed of him since one I am tamad, two he’s the one planning the trip knowing that he’s tamad too, that’s why I love him) Okay so much for the landi.

We started the morning by seeing each other at 6AM on LRT Recto. It was so cute coz instead of him fetching me at Cubao I told him to meet me on Recto instead para tipid. What’s cute is that we were conversing thru messenger capturing the timing of arrival of the train I rode so that he will get in on the same train I rode in (my train came first since I’m from Cubao then he’s from Pureza). From Recto, we rode a jeep going to the Bus Terminal which will send us to Tagaytay however bus is not around during that time and the barkers there does not know what time specifically it will be available.

After few minutes of waiting, he then decided for us to take a walk on another MRT station which is a few walks away from the Bus Terminal. As for me I’ll keep on following him as I don’t know where are we at LOL. And then we landed to MRT Central station. The coke benches were oh so cute. Another thing I love with Lorenz is that he is fond of taking pictures of me. Might that be stolen and or me posing for a picture. Some of his shots:

Few minutes of waiting the MRT came. Inside the train was us very excited on what goes along the way since it is our very first time travelling together. Told you, it’s a first.

I forgot what station we step down. As we walk towards the Bus station that will send us to Tagaytay, I really feel the excitement. Hahaha. Excited ang lola mo lol. At the bus was a smooth 1.5hrs ride I guess. Lorenz keeps on looking at the Waze App just to ensure of our location. πŸ™‚

After a few hours of bus travel, touch down Tagaytay. I really love how cool the wind is. ❀️

Our first stop was Chowking Tagaytay as I am really craving for Chao Pan and the chopsticks hahaha. Then we rode a tricycle going to People’s Park. An 80pesos tricycle ride is not so bad. As it was a Sunday morning, there are a lot of families and couples that visited the Park but it wasn’t a hassle since the area is big.

We rent a banig for us to comfortably sit on the grasses and we look for a perfect view. Good thing that the weather is somehow perfect during that time and we enjoyed our 2-3hrs banig date.

After our banig date was a long walk across the bridges on the park. Ofcourse, it’s picture time for Lorenz hahaha. As in every side that is picture worthy, he will stop and he will say “Picturan kita dito”

Yey, it was almost 1pm when we leave the park then we headed to the condotel. Few minutes of waiting for ate girl whom Lorenz had negotiated with, at last, touch down Room 2069. We were both so tired of walking but the room was so pretty cute. The gravity is pulling me to sleep. Hahaha. And yes, I fall asleep. It was 4pm if I can recall correctly when Lorenz is waking me up. He had cooked rice and fried the ulam already (since I am too lazy and has fallen to sleep) I feel loved LOL waking up with the foods already served πŸ€— We then watched a movie (Ant Man) even though I already watched it before. We had started kasi on completing the Marvel Movies prior the Infinity War screening but we failed to complete it on time yet we still continued. After Ant Man was Civil War.. (My love, after Civil War what did we watched? Hahaha All I can remember is what we did next which we prepped for swimming. Anyways..)

So we headed to the 3rd floor as to where we will be swimming. YES IN A COLD COLD WEATHER HAHAHA NAGSWIMMING PA KAME. And knowing Lorenz that has a cold blood hahahaha. But we enjoyed swimming in the pool as we kept on making lunod each other. Like, ano bang tawag dun, yung ilulublob ung ulo HAHAHAHA. After a 30min swim (di namin kinaya kasi ang lamig) we decided to go back to our room. It’s 9pm and I am craving!!! Hahahaha. So we then brought some midnight snacks in KFC and 7-11 to satisfy our cravings (but ended up with the ice cream being untouched kasi I am takaw mata)

The next day, after checking out in the room we went to the Market para matikman ang infamous Bulalo and Fried Tawilis. The bulalo was not something I am expecting but it’s good. What I did love was the tawilis! πŸ€—πŸ€— after eating, we then buy pasalubong and rode a bus on our way home.

Sorry, baligtad ung video LOL

The saddest part of the trip is us bidding goodbye to each other. But all I can say us that I enjoyed every minute we are together πŸ™‚

Again, thank you mylove for planning this trip. Looking forward for more gala with you. I love you! 😘😘😘

Dating. Nonexclusive. :(

This is so awkward. Cause I know he’s visiting my blog. Well, so be it. He knows naman. And he’s assumero so much kaya I will be posting you na. Haha jk.

I always told you I don’t know how we started. I kept on thinking how. But all I know is that you were the one who started it all. Don’t deny it, because you know it so damn well. πŸ™‚

So we already have 3 dates in the making. First one was so unplanned. As we were heading the same road on the way home, we rode together. And then he

Him: “Kain tayo”

Me: “Okay lang” (another me: gabi na bes galing kapang OT HAHHA)

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That was our first date. That time I knew there was something already. I’m not manhid nor assumera pero the way he talks to me, I knew there is something. His simple “goodmornings/good nights”, “ingat”, “kaen ka na”, “san ka na?”, “kumaen ka na?” (I told him this and he told me “binigyan mo kasi ng meaning” then me “ah ganon?!” him “joke lang, meron naman talaga”) HAHAHA

January 6 came. I was drunk. (Not too drunk) Basta I was drinking. Then I posted these tweets

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Little did I know he was reading pala my tweets. Chismoso din e hahaha. So ayun. We were chatting via FB

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Kaso di to natuloy. Nakatulog si beks. Hahaha. Pero kenekeleg ako hinintay nya daw ako nakatulog lang sya HAHAH he was out by 9am then ako almost 2pm na din ata yun.

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Our picture while waiting for our order. It was my first time eating on Dampa ❀

January 8. Our second date. The Siargao. The Dampa. The holding hands. Gago yun, I was hit by my weakest side. (Nakakatawa he waited for an hr almost ata) HAHAHAH

Pero he confessed, that he’s not yet ready. He’s not into commitment. He’s being sorry. And I understand. After that, I was mad at him. Hahaha. For a day. The next day, I moved on. I’ll be friends with him.. Kasi he’s okay to be with e. So we agreed, wala ng holding hands a! LOL

Then January 14 came. Our third date. Friendly date. But on our way pa lang to MOA, he had this sweet gestures na agad. Sabi ko “Ano to?” HAHA tapos bibitawan niya kamay ko then kukunin ulit. Enebe!

There’s no such thing as “we” kasi he made it very clear na he’s not into relationships on this year cause it’s a do or die year for him. As next year would be his turning off age and he has not yet reached anything (as per him) which I understand. But I am happy when we are together. So, I’m gonna go with the flow.

Thank you for sticking with me anyways! πŸ™‚ Till our next FRIENDLY date. XD

Playing “We don’t have to” by Jai https://open.spotify.com/embed/track/4EuLFnWuo2r4WnHlECaIp5

I Kissed 2017 GoodBye!

2017 was such as roller coaster ride. Started the year with the love of my life, whom I thought I’ll be sharing my life with in the end, then ended it with the loves of my life and them for sure will be with me till the end. 2017 did taught me my life’s greatest lessons.

For one, is to love someone enough as to which you still have room for yourself, your family, friends and God. I realized I’ve been so into loving him this 2017 that I just realized it when he left me. I broke down when he called it off. I did have suicidal thoughts that time, yes, I did. (Tang***Β naiiyak ako habang naalala ko yun) Ayoko na, tagalog na lang para damang dama ko haha. I was too into him, that I even came to a point na okay lang kahit hindi ko kasama friends ko as long as we’re together. My sundays and rest times were only for him. So when he called it off, I rebelled. I did things which I did not expect na magagawa ko. Like drinking liquors everyday after work, kapag hindi ako uminom hindi ako makakatulog. Gabi gabing umiiyak. Everyday, minemessage ko siya na nun begging to be back in my life (tang*** talaga haha nakakatawa na lang isipin) I changed the me before. The hiding me before stood heads up high. I focused with my career. Pero I still have weak spots pa din, nung time na namimiss ko siya I tried dating. I dated a friend (not a ‘date’ date guy) just to divert my feelings. After him, I tried dating apps as well. I flirted a bit lol. There was one guy there pa nga na nahirapan akong magmoveon (he was the first guy I flirted with online) Kasi siguro blinded pa din ako sa love nun kaya paniwalang paniwala ako sa mga pakilig sentiments niya, inisip ko pa na kakaririn ko na tong guy na to may sariling negosyo e hahaha lol, buti na lang nagising ako. And so on and so forth.

Secondly, empathize and be nice. To anyone. Not only those who are kind to you, but to everyone. You may not know that they are struggling inside. [Still working this out, tho]

Third, be true. Be YOU. I’m loud and maarte and perfectionist, (and many more) I don’t care. I make no apologies for the people who tend not to cope up with my ugly sides. If they really love me or want me, they will stay. No matter what kind of me I am acting.

2017, thank you for making me realize there is more to life, hindi lang puro pag-ibig. Hindi lang puro Atong. There is family and friends and God. I thought I cannot survive my life without him. But look at me now. I did. I did not regret having him in my life. Kahit na masakit yung ginawa niya still I wanna thank him. He was the way na marealize ko tong mga bagay na to but all the credits goes to mine. I worked it out.

Now, I am enjoying my career. Balanced life. I make time for friends and family. Naibalik ko yung Sunday Church girl (mejo palyado nga lang this Dec because of work)

I wanna thank God kasi He did not gave up on me. And the peeps around me, kung wala sila cheering me up, baka natuloy ko na YUN.

I don’t have any plans for 2018 yet. Whatever God had planned, so be it. Whatever life has to offer, I’ll receive it wholeheartedly. Kung bibigyan ako ng lovelife, (sige na po pls HAHA NATAWA AKO *pause 11:13*)

Career growth.

Lovelife (charot).

Money. More money. $_$

Travel? Let’s see!

Friends? I have enough one and the truest, but not closing doors for those coming.

Goodbye 2017. I’ve been through a lot in that year. Yup, you’ve been an awesome year though. Super. I might had lost one, but I did gain many ❀ and I have them in my pocket as I enter 2018.

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